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Audio Diary – Divine Mercy in My Soul
Book I ( CD 2 of 9:
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NOTEBOOK I, CD 2 |
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Entries 29 - 40 |
13:24 |
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Entries 41 - 50 |
18:41 |
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Entries 51 - 60 |
15:32 |
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Entries 61 - 73 |
08:34 |
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Song – My Divine Mercy |
04:09 |
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Entries 74 – 80 |
11:30 |
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Entries 81 – 88 |
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One
of the Mothers [probably Mother Jane], when she learned about my close
relationship with the Lord Jesus, told me that I must be deluding myself. She
told me that the Lord Jesus associates in this way only with the saints and
not with sinful souls "like you, Sister!" After that, it was as if
I mistrusted Jesus. In one of my morning talks with Him I said, "Jesus,
are You not an illusion?" Jesus answered me, My love deceives no one.
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+On
one occasion I was reflecting on the Holy Trinity, on the essence of God. I
absolutely wanted to know and fathom who God is. ... In an instant my spirit
was caught up into what seemed to be the next world. I saw an inaccessible
light, and in this light what appeared like three sources of light which I
could not understand. And out of that light came words in the form of
lightning which encircled heaven and earth. Not understanding anything, I was
very sad. Suddenly, from this sea of inaccessible light came our dearly
beloved Savior, unutterably beautiful with His shining Wounds. And from this
light came a voice which said, Who God is in His Essence, no one will
fathom, neither the mind of Angels nor of man. Jesus said to me, Get
to know God by contemplating His attributes. A moment later, He traced
the sign of the cross with His hand and vanished." |
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31
+Once I saw a big crowd of people in our chapel, in front of the chapel and
in the street, because there was no room for them inside. [19] The chapel was decorated for a feast. There
were a lot of clergy near the altar, and then our sisters and those of many
other congregations. They were all waiting for the person who was to take a
place on the altar. Suddenly I heard a voice saying that I was to take the
place on the altar. But as soon as I left the corridor to go across the yard
and enter the chapel, following the voice that was calling me, all the people
began to throw at me whatever they had to hand: mud, stones, sand, brooms, to
such an extent that I at first hesitated to go forward. But the voice kept on
calling me even more earnestly, so I walked on bravely. |
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32 |
Another
time I heard these words, Go to the Superior and ask her to allow you to
make a daily hour of adoration for nine days. During this adoration try to
unite yourself in prayer with My Mother. Pray with all your heart in union
with Mary, and try also during this time to make the Way of the Cross. I
received the permission, though not for a full hour, but only for whatever
time was left me after I had carried out my duties. |
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33 |
I
was to make this novena for the intention of my Motherland. On the seventh
day of the novena I saw, between heaven and earth, the Mother of God, clothed
in a bright robe. She was praying with Her hands folded on Her bosom, Her
eyes fixed on Heaven. From Her Heart issued forth fiery rays, some of which
were turned toward Heaven while the others were covering our country. |
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34 |
When
I told this and certain other things to my confessor, [21] he replied that these might really be coming
from God, but that they might also be an illusion. Because of my frequent
changes [of assignments], I did not have a permanent confessor and besides, I
had great difficulty in speaking of these things. I prayed ardently that the
Lord would give me that great grace-that is, a spiritual director. But my prayer
was answered only after my perpetual vows, when I went to Vilnius. The priest
was Father Sopocko. [22] God had allowed me to see him in an interior
vision even before I came to Vilnius. [23] |
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Oh,
if only I had had a spiritual director from the beginning, then I would not
have wasted so many of God's graces. A confessor can help a soul a great
deal, but he can also cause it a lot of harm. Oh, how careful confessors
should be about the work of God's grace in their penitents' souls! This is a
matter of great importance. By the graces given to a soul, one can recognize
the degree of its intimacy with God. |
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36 |
Once
I was summoned to the judgment [seat] of God. I stood alone before the Lord.
Jesus appeared such as we know Him during His Passion. After a moment, His
wounds disappeared except for five, those in His hands, His feet and His
side. Suddenly I saw the complete condition of my soul as God sees it. I
could clearly see all that is displeasing to God. I did not know that even
the smallest transgressions will have to be accounted for. What a moment! Who
can describe it? To stand before the Thrice-Holy God! Jesus asked me, Who
are you? I answered, "I am Your servant, Lord." You are
guilty of one day of fire in purgatory. I wanted to throw myself immediately
into the flames of purgatory, but Jesus stopped me and said, Which do you
prefer, suffer now for one day in purgatory or for a short while on earth?
I replied, "Jesus, I want to suffer in purgatory, and I want to suffer
also the greatest pains on earth, even if it were until the end of the
world." Jesus said, One [of the two] is enough; you will go
back to earth, and there you will suffer much, but not for long; you will
accomplish My will and My desires, and a faithful servant of Mine will help
you to do this. Now, rest your head on My bosom, on My heart, and draw from
it strength and power for these sufferings, because you will find neither
relief nor help nor comfort anywhere else. Know that you will have much, much
to suffer, but don't let this frighten you; I am with you. |
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Soon
afterwards I became ill. [24] Physical weakness was for me a school of
patience. Only Jesus knows how many efforts of will I had to make to fulfill
my duty. [25] |
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In
order to purify a soul, Jesus uses whatever instruments He likes. My soul
underwent a complete abandonment on the part of creatures; often my best
intentions were misinterpreted by the sisters, [26] a type of suffering which is most painful;
but God allows it, and we must accept it because in this way we become more
like Jesus. There was one thing which I could not understand for a long time:
Jesus ordered me to tell everything to my Superiors, but my Superiors did not
believe what I said and treated me with pity as though I were being deluded
or were imagining things. |
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+
One day Jesus told me that He would cause a chastisement to fall upon the
most beautiful city in our country [probably Warsaw]. This chastisement would
be that with which God had punished Sodom and Gomorrah. [27] I saw the great wrath of God and a shudder
pierced my heart. I prayed in silence.After a
moment, Jesus said to me, My child, unite yourself closely to Me during
the Sacrifice and offer My Blood and My Wounds to My Father in expiation for
the sins of that city. Repeat this without interruption throughout the entire
Holy Mass. Do this for seven days. On the seventh day I saw Jesus in a
bright cloud and began to beg Him to look upon the city and upon our whole
country. Jesus looked [down] graciously. When I saw the kindness of' Jesus, I
began to beg His blessing. Immediately Jesus said, For your sake I bless
the entire country. And He made a big sign of the cross over our country.
Seeing the goodness of God, a great joy filled my soul. |
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+The
year 1929. Once during Holy Mass, I felt in a very special way the closeness
of God, although I tried to turn away and escape from Him. On several
occasions I have run away from God because I did not want to be a victim of
the evil spirit; since others have told me, more than once, that such is the
case. And this incertitude lasted for quite some time. During Holy Mass,
before Communion, we had the renewal of vows. When we had left our kneelers
and had started to recite the formula for the vows, Jesus appeared suddenly
at my side clad in a white garment with a golden girdle around His waist, and
He said to me, I give you eternal love that your purity may be untarnished
and as a sign that you will never be subject to temptations against purity.
Jesus took off His golden cincture and tied it around my waist. |
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On
one occasion I saw a servant of God in the immediate danger of committing a
mortal sin. I started to beg God to deign to send down upon me all the
torments of hell and all the sufferings He wished if only this priest would
be set free and snatched from the occasion of committing a sin. Jesus heard
my prayer and, that very instant, I felt a crown of thorns on my head. The
thorns penetrated my head with great force right into my brain. This lasted
for three hours; the servant of God was set free from this sin, and his soul
was strengthened by a special grace of God. |
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+Once,
on Christmas Day [ 1928], I felt the omnipotence and the presence of God
surrounding me. And once more I fled from this interior meeting with the
Lord. I asked Mother Superior for permission to go to Jozefinek
[28] to visit the sisters there. The Superior gave
us permission, and we started to get ready right after lunch. The other
sisters were already waiting for me at the door of the convent while I ran to
my cell to get my cloak. On my way back, as I was passing close to the little
chapel, I saw Jesus standing in the doorway. He said to me, Go ahead, but
I am taking your heart. Suddenly I felt that I had no heart in my chest.
But the sisters were scolding me for lingering behind, saying that it was
already getting late, so I quickly went along with them. But a sense of
uneasiness troubled me, and a strange longing invaded my soul, though no one
knew what was happening except God. |
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On
one occasion I saw two sisters who were about to enter hell. A terrible agony
tore my soul; I prayed to God for them, and Jesus said to me, Go to Mother
Superior and tell her that those two sisters are in danger of committing a
mortal sin. The next day I told this to the Superior. One of them had
already repented with great fervor and the other was going through a great
struggle. |
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One
day Jesus said to me, I am going to leave this house... because there are
things here which displease Me. And the Host came out of the tabernacle
and came lo rest in my hands and I, with joy,
placed it back in the tabernacle. This was repeated a second time, and I did
the same thing. Despite this, it happened a third time, but the Host was
transformed into the living Lord Jesus, who said to me, I will stay here
no longer! At this, a powerful love for Jesus rose up in my soul. I
answered, "And I, I will not let You leave this house, Jesus!" And
again Jesus disappeared while the Host remained in my hands. Once again I put
it back in the chalice and closed it up in the tabernacle. And Jesus stayed
with us. I undertook to make three days of adoration by way of reparation. |
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Once
Jesus said to me, Tell Mother General [Michael] that in this house ... such
and such a thing is being committed ... which displeases Me and offends Me
greatly. I did not tell this to Mother right away, but the uneasiness which
the Lord made me feel did not permit me to wait a minute longer, and I wrote
immediately to Mother General, and peace returned to my soul. |
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46 |
I often felt the Passion of
the Lord Jesus in my body, although this was imperceptible [to others], and I
rejoiced in it because Jesus wanted it so. But this lasted for only a short
time. These sufferings set my soul afire with love for God and for immortal
souls. Love endures everything, love is stronger than death, love fears
nothing... |
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In
the evening, when I was in my cell, I saw the Lord Jesus clothed in a white
garment. One hand [was] raised in the gesture of blessing, the other was
touching the garment at the breast. From beneath the garment, slightly drawn
aside at the breast, there were emanating two large rays, one red, the other
pale. In silence I kept my gaze fixed on the Lord; my soul was struck with
awe, but also with great joy. After a while, Jesus said to me, Paint an
image according to the pattern you see, with the signature: Jesus, I trust in
You. I desire that this image be venerated, first in your chapel, and [then]
throughout the world. |
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I promise that the soul that will venerate this image will not
perish. I also promise victory over [its] enemies already here on earth, especially
at the hour of death. I Myself will defend it as My own glory. |
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When
I told this to my confessor, [29] I received this for a reply: "That refers
to your soul." He told me, "Certainly, paint God's image in your
soul." When I came out of the confessional, I again heard words such as
these: My image already is in your soul. I desire that there be a Feast of
Mercy. I want this image, which you will paint with a brush, to be solemnly
blessed on the first Sunday after Easter; that Sunday is to be the Feast of
Mercy. |
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+I desire that priests proclaim this great mercy of Mine towards
souls of sinners. Let the sinner not be afraid to approach Me. The flames of
mercy are burning Me - clamoring to be spent; I want to pour them out upon
these souls. |
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When
I spoke about this to Mother Superior [Rose, [30] telling her] that God had asked this of me,
she answered that Jesus should give some sign so that we could recognize Him
more clearly. |
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When
I tried to run away from these interior inspirations, God said to me that on
the day of judgment He would demand of me a great number of souls. |
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For
the present you are coming to me for confession, but understand, Sister, that
you must have a permanent confessor; that is to say, a spiritual
director." |
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+One
day, tired out with all these uncertainties, I asked Jesus, "Jesus, are
You my God or some kind of phantom? Because my Superiors say that there are
all sorts of illusions and phantoms. If You are my Lord, I beg You to bless
me." Then Jesus made a big sign of the cross over me and I, too, signed
myself. When I asked pardon of Jesus for this question, He replied that I had
in no way displeased Him by this question and that my confidence pleased Him
very much. |
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1933. Spiritual Counsel Given Me by Father Andrasz, S.J. First: You
must not turn away from these interior inspirations, but always tell
everything to your confessor. If you recognize that these interior
inspirations refer to your own self; that is to say, they are for the good of
your soul or for the good of other souls, l urge you to follow them; and you
must not neglect them, but always do so in consultation with your confessor. |
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O
my God, I understand well that You demand this spiritual childhood [32] of me, because You are constantly asking it
of me through Your representatives. |
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O
my Jesus, You are the life of my life. You know only too well that I long for
nothing but the glory of Your Name and that souls come to know Your goodness.
Why do souls avoid You, Jesus?-I don't understand that. Oh, if I could only
cut my heart into tiny pieces and in this way offer to You, O Jesus, each
piece as a heart whole and entire, to make up in part for the hearts that do
not love You! I love You, Jesus, with every drop of my blood, and I would
gladly shed my blood for You to give You a proof of the sincerity of my love.
O God, the more I know You the less I can comprehend You, but this
"non-comprehension" lets me realize how great You are! And it is
this impossibility of comprehending You which enflames my heart anew for You,
O Lord. From the moment when You let me fix the eyes of my soul on You, O
Jesus, I have been at peace and desired nothing else. I found my destiny at
the moment when my soul lost itself in You, the only object of my love. In
comparison with you, everything is nothing. Sufferings, adversities,
humiliations, failures and suspicions that have come my way are splinters
that keep alive the fire of my love for You, O Jesus. |
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+One
night, a sister who had died two months previously came to me. She was a
sister of the first choir. I saw her in a terrible condition, all in flames
with her face painfully distorted. This lasted only a short time, and then
she disappeared. A shudder went through my soul because I did not know
whether she was suffering in purgatory or in hell. Nevertheless I redoubled
my prayers for her. The next night she came again, but I saw her in an even
more horrible state, in the midst of flames which were even more intense, and
despair was written all over her face. I was astonished to see her in a worse
condition after the prayers I had offered for her, and I asked, "Haven't
my prayers helped you?" She answered that my prayers had not helped her
and that nothing would help her. I said to her, "And the prayers which
been any help to you?" She said no, that these prayers had helped some
other souls. I replied, "If my prayers are not helping you, Sister,
please stop coming to me." She disappeared at once. Despite this, I kept
on praying. |
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1933.
On one occasion I heard these words in my soul, Make a novena for your
country. This novena will consist of the recitation of the Litany of the
Saints. Ask your confessor for permission [probably Father Sopocko or Father Andrasz]. |
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I
received permission at my next confession and began the novena that very
evening. Towards the end of the litany I saw a great radiance and, in the
midst of it, God the Father. Between this radiance and the earth I saw Jesus,
nailed to the Cross in such a way that when God wanted to look at the earth,
He had to look through the wounds of Jesus. And I understood that it was for
the sake of Jesus that God blesses the earth. |
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O
Jesus, I thank you for this great grace; namely, that You yourself have
deigned to choose a confessor for me, and that You had made him known to me
in a vision even before I had met him [Father Sopocko].
When I went to confession to Father Andrasz, I
thought that I would be released from following these interior inspirations.
Father replied that he could not dispense me from this, "but pray,
Sister, that you be given a spiritual director." |
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O
life so dull and monotonous, how many treasures you contain! When I look at
everything with the eyes of faith, no two hours are alike, and the dullness
and monotony disappear. The grace which is given me in this hour will not be
repeated in the next. It may be given me again, but it will not be the same
grace. Time goes on, never to return again. Whatever is enclosed in it will
never change; it seals with a seal for eternity. |
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+Father
Sopocko must be well loved by God. I say this
because I myself have experienced how much God defends him at certain
moments. When I see this, I rejoice greatly that God has such chosen ones. |
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When
I came to Vilnius for two months to replace a sister who had gone for her
third probation [Sister Peter, who worked in the kitchen], I stayed a little
longer than two months. One day, the Mother Superior [Irene [34]], wanting to give me a bit of pleasure, gave
me permission to go, together with another sister, [35] to Calvary to "walk the paths," as
they say. I was delighted. Although it was not very far, it was Mother
Superior's wish that we should go by boat. That evening Jesus said to me, I
want you to stay home. I answered, "Jesus, everything is ready for
us to leave tomorrow morning; what am I to do now?" The Lord answered, This
trip will be harmful to your soul. I replied to Jesus, "You can find
a way out. Arrange things in such a way that Your will may be done." At
that moment the bell announced the time for sleep. I gave Jesus a parting
glance and went to my cell. |
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One
time during the novitiate, when Mother Directress sent me to work in the
wards' kitchen, I was very upset because I could not manage the pots, which
were very large. The most difficult task for me was draining the potatoes,
and sometimes I spilt half of them with the water. When I told this to Mother
Directress, she said that with time I would get used to it and gain the
necessary skill. Yet the task was not getting any easier, as I was growing
weaker every day. So I would move away when it was time to drain the
potatoes. The sisters noticed that I avoided this task and were very much
surprised. They did not know that I could not help in spite of all my
willingness to do this and not spare myself. At noon, during the examination
of conscience, I complained to God about my weakness. Then I heard the
following words in my soul,From today on
you will do this easily; I shall strengthen you. |
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O
inexhaustible treasure of purity of intention which makes all our actions
perfect and so pleasing to God! |
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When
I fell sick [probably the beginning of consumption] after my first vows and
when, despite the kind and solicitous care of my Superiors and the efforts of
the doctor, I felt neither better nor worse, remarks began to reach my ears
which inferred that I was making believe. With that, my suffering was
doubled, and this lasted for quite a long time. One day I complained to Jesus
that I was being a burden to the sisters. Jesus answered me, You are not
living for yourself but for souls, and other souls will profit from your
sufferings. Your prolonged suffering will give them the light and strength to
accept My will. |
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The
heaviest suffering for me was that it seemed to me that neither my prayers
nor my good works were pleasing to God. I did not dare lift up my eyes to
heaven. This caused me such great suffering during the community exercises in
the chapel that one day Mother Superior [Raphael] called me aside after the
exercises and said to me, "Sister, ask God for grace and consolation,
because I can see for myself and the sisters keep telling me that the very
sight of you evokes pity. I really do not know what to do with you, Sister. I
command you to stop tormenting yourself for no reason." |
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+O
Jesus, eternal Truth, strengthen my feeble forces; You can do all things,
Lord. I know that without You all my efforts are in vain. O Jesus, do not
hide from me, for I cannot live without You. Listen to the cry of my soul.
Your mercy has not been exhausted, Lord, so have pity on my misery. Your
mercy surpasses the understanding of all Angels and people put together; and
so, although it seems to me that You do not hear me, I put my trust in the
ocean of Your mercy, and I know that my hope will not be deceived. |
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Only
Jesus knows how burdensome and difficult it is to accomplish one's duties
when the soul is so interiorly tortured, the physical powers so weakened and
the mind darkened. In the silence of my heart I kept saying to myself,
"O Christ, may delights, honor and glory be Yours, and suffering be
mine. I will not lag one step behind as I follow You, though thorns wound my
feet." |
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I
was sent for treatment to our house in Plock, and there I had the privilege
of decorating the chapel with flowers. That was at Biala.
[36] Sister Thecla did not always have time for
this, so I often decorated the chapel by myself. One day, I had picked the
prettiest roses to decorate the room of a certain person. When I was
approaching the porch, I saw Jesus standing there. In a kindly way He asked
me, My daughter, to whom are you taking these flowers? My silence was
my reply to the Lord, because I recognized immediately that I had a very
subtle attachment to this person, [37] which I had not noticed before. Suddenly
Jesus disappeared. At the same moment I threw the flowers on the ground and
went before the Blessed Sacrament, my heart filled with gratitude for the
grace of knowing myself. |
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O
Jesus, eternal Truth, our Life, I call upon You and I beg Your mercy for poor
sinners. O sweetest Heart of my Lord, full of pity and unfathomable mercy, I
plead with You for poor sinners. O Most Sacred Heart, Fount of Mercy from
which gush forth rays of inconceivable graces upon the entire human race, I
beg of You light for poor sinners. O Jesus, be mindful of Your own bitter
Passion and do not permit the loss of souls redeemed at so dear a price of
Your most precious Blood. O Jesus, when I consider the great price of Your
Blood, I rejoice at its immensity, for one drop alone would have been enough
for the salvation of all sinners. Although sin is an abyss of wickedness and
ingratitude, the price paid for us can never be equalled.
Therefore, let every soul trust in the Passion of the Lord, and place its
hope in His mercy. God will not deny His mercy to anyone. Heaven and earth
may change, but God's mercy will never be exhausted. Oh, what immense joy
burns in my heart when I contemplate Your incomprehensible goodness, O Jesus!
I desire to bring all sinners to Your feet that they may glorify Your mercy
throughout endless ages. |
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O
my Jesus, despite the deep night that is all around me and the dark clouds
which hide the horizon, I know that the sun never goes out. O Lord, though I
cannot comprehend You and do not understand Your ways, I nonetheless trust in
Your mercy. If it is Your will, Lord, that I live always in such darkness,
may You be blessed. I ask You only one thing, Jesus: do not allow me to
offend You in any way. O my Jesus, You alone know the longings and the
sufferings of my heart. I am glad I can suffer for You, however little. When
I feel that the suffering is more than I can bear, I take refuge in the Lord
in the Blessed Sacrament, and I speak to Him with profound silence. |
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One
day I felt driven to take steps to see to it that the Feast of Mercy be instituted
and the image of the Merciful Jesus be painted, and I could find no peace.
Something was pervading my whole being, and yet I feared being deluded.
However, these doubts always came from outside, because in the depths of my
soul I felt it was the Lord who was penetrating my being. The priest to whom
I was going to confession at that time told me that one can often have
illusions, and I felt that he was somewhat afraid to hear my confession. This
was a torture for me. Seeing that I was getting very little help from people,
I turned all the more to Jesus, the best of all teachers. At one time, when I
was filled with doubts as to whether the voice I heard came from the Lord or
not, I began to speak to Jesus interiorly without forming any words. Suddenly
an inner force took hold of me and I said, "If You who commune with me
and talk to me are truly my God, I beg You, O Lord, to make this ward go this
very day to confession; this sign will give me reassurance." At that
very moment, the girl asked to go to confession. |
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But
these doubts always come from without, a fact which inclined me to close
myself up more and more within myself. When, during confession, I sense
uncertainty on the part of the priest, I do not open my soul to its depths,
but only accuse myself of my sins. A priest who is not at peace with himself
will not be able to inspire peace in another soul. |
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O
my Jesus, direct my mind, take possession of my whole being, enclose me in
the depths of Your heart, and protect me against the assaults of the enemy.
My only hope is in You. Speak through my mouth when I, wretchedness itself, find
myself with the mighty and wise, so that they will know that this undertaking
is Yours and comes from You. |
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My
mind became dimmed in a strange way; no truth seemed clear to me. When people
spoke to me about God, my heart was like a rock. I could not draw from it a
single sentiment of love for Him. When I tried, by an act of the will, to
remain close to Him, I experienced great torments, and it seemed to me that I
was only provoking God to an even greater anger. It was absolutely impossible
for me to meditate as I had been accustomed to do in the past. I felt in my
soul a great void, and there was nothing with which I could fill it. I began
to suffer from a great hunger and yearning for God, but I saw my utter powerlessness.
I tried to read slowly, sentence by sentence, and to meditate in this way,
but this also was of no avail. I understood nothing of what I had read. |
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Once
when I was being crushed by these dreadful sufferings, I went into the chapel
and said from the bottom of my soul, "Do what You will with me, O Jesus;
I will adore You in everything. May Your will be done in me, O my Lord and my
God, and I will praise Your infinite mercy." Through this act of
submission, these terrible torments left me. Suddenly I saw Jesus, who said
to me, I am always in your heart. An inconceivable joy entered my
soul, and a great love of God set my heart aflame. I see that God never tries
us beyond what we are able to suffer. Oh, I fear nothing; if God sends such
great suffering to a soul, He upholds it with an even greater grace, although
we are not aware of it. One act of trust at such moments gives greater glory
to God than whole hours passed in prayer filled with consolations. Now I see
that if God wants to keep a soul in darkness, no book, no confessor can bring
it light. |
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O
Mary, my Mother and my Lady, I offer You my soul, my body, my life and my
death, and all that will Follow it. I place everything in Your hands. O my
Mother, cover my soul with Your virginal mantle and grant me the grace of
purity of heart, soul and body. Defend me with Your power against all
enemies, and especially against those who hide their malice behind the mask
of virtue. O lovely lily! You are for me a mirror, O my Mother! |
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O
Jesus, Divine Prisoner of Love, when I consider Your love and how You emptied
Yourself for me, my senses fail me. You hide Your inconceivable majesty and
lower Yourself to miserable me. O King of Glory, though You hide Your beauty,
yet the eye of my soul rends the veil. I see the angelic choirs giving You
honor without cease, and all the heavenly Powers praising You without cease,
and without cease they are saying: Holy, Holy, Holy. |
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O
Holy Trinity, One and Indivisible God, may You be blessed for this great gift
and testament of mercy. My Jesus, to atone for blasphemers I will keep silent
when unjustly reprimanded and in this way make partial amends to You. I am
singing within my soul an unending hymn to You, and no one will suspect or
understand this. The song of my soul is known to You alone, O my Creator and
Lord! |
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I
will not allow myself to be so absorbed in the whirlwind of work as to forget
about God. I will spend all my free moments at the feet of the Master hidden
in the Blessed Sacrament. He has been tutoring me from my most tender years. |
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Write this: before I come as the just Judge, I am coming first as the
King of Mercy. Before the day of justice arrives, there will be given to
people a sign in the heavens of this sort: All light in the heavens will be
extinguished, and there will be great darkness over the whole earth. Then the
sign of the cross will be seen in the sky, and from the openings where the
hands and the feet of the Savior were nailed will come forth great lights
which will light up the earth for a period of time. This will take place
shortly before the last day. |
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O Blood and Water, which
gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fount of mercy for us, I trust in
You! |
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On
Friday, after Holy Communion, I was carried in spirit before the throne of
God. There I saw the heavenly Powers which incessantly praise God. Beyond the
throne I saw a brightness inaccessible to creatures, and there only the
Incarnate Word enters as Mediator. When Jesus entered this light, I heard
these words, Write down at once what you hear: I am the Lord in My essence
and am immune to orders or needs. If I call creatures into being - that is
the abyss of My mercy. And at that very moment I found myself, as before,
in our chapel at my kneeler, just as Mass had ended. I already had these
words written. |
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[Once] when I saw how much
my confessor [probably Father Sopocko] was to
suffer because of this work which God was going to carry out through him,
fear seized me for the moment, and I said to the Lord, "Jesus, this is
Your affair, so why are You acting this way toward him? It seems to me that
You are making difficulties for him while at the same time ordering him to
act." |
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On
Friday at ten minutes to six, when I and some of our wards [38] were coming in from the garden to supper, I
saw the Lord Jesus above our chapel, looking just as He did I the first time
I saw Him and just as He is painted in the image. The two rays which emanated
from the Heart of Jesus covered our chapel and the infirmary, and then the
whole city, and spread out over the whole world. This lasted about four
minutes and disappeared. One of the girls, who was walking with me a little
behind the others, also saw these rays, but she did not see Jesus, and she
did not know where these rays were coming from. She was overwhelmed and told
the other girls. They began to laugh at her, suggesting that she was
imagining things or that perhaps it was light reflected by a passing
airplane. But she persisted in her conviction, saying that never had she seen
such rays before. When the others suggested that it might have been a
searchlight, she replied that she knew very well what a searchlight was like,
but never had she seen rays such as these. |
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+During
adoration I felt God close to me. A moment later I saw Jesus and Mary. At the
sight of them I was filled with joy, and I asked the Lord, "What is Your
will, Jesus, concerning the matter about which my confessor told me to ask
You?" Jesus replied, It is My will that he should remain here and
that he should not take the initiative of dispensing himself. I asked
Jesus whether the inscription could be: "Christ King of Mercy." He
answered, I am King of Mercy, but He did not say "Christ." I
desire that this image be displayed in public on the first Sunday after
Easter. That Sunday is the Feast of Mercy. Through the Word Incarnate I make
known the bottomless depth of My mercy. |
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