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My experience at the LSS

 

        The life in the spirit seminar (LSS) has changed my life. I’ve become more cheerful and although I’m not perfect (NOBODY is). I try to improve my flaws (It’s very hard).

 

        Before the seminar started, I was having doubts and was feeling quite reluctant to attend the seminar. Luckily, the seminar was compulsory for the students preparing for the sacrament of confirmation. If it was not a must, I wouldn’t have been able to share my experiences with anyone. Father Chin told us before the seminar that we should always ask for the Holy Spirit to descend on us.

 

        We started off by singing worship songs and praising Jesus. The hymns were very melodious and the talks given by the aunties (from the BSC youth) were very meaningful. The aunties also told us stories based on life accounts. The teens (from the Emmaus Community Teen Cell) also shared their very meaningful and touching personal experiences.

 

        I felt very happy after confession because I understood the real reason for confession. After confession, we were to go for a counseling session. I felt better after talking to Aunty Tina for she understood the situation I was in.

 

        During the inner healing session, most of us, including myself shed tears. Before the inner healing session even started (that was when Aunty Pauline was explaining the meaning of inner healing) I had a feeling I was going to cry. True enough, I practically cried my eyeballs out that night. When the aunties and uncles sang the song “Jesus, We Enthrone You, tears rolled down my cheeks and I couldn’t myself. I felt so much hurt and sadness when I recalled most of the things that had happened in the past. I felt so sorry and cried even more.

 

        It was then my turn to light the candle and pray at the foot of Jesus, I closed my eyes and felt like waves in the ocean, swaying to and fro. I was so afraid I would fall towards the crucifix, so I opened my eyes immediately and the “waves” stopped when I closed my eyes again, the feeling was gone miraculously, when one of the aunties prayed over me, I felt like a wave again. This time I just let myself flow freely and before I knew it, I was already lying on the floor. For a moment, I didn’t know anything, but as soon as the aunty/uncle (can’t remember) caught me. I was fully aware of all the happenings around me. At that time I didn’t know why but my heart was pumping furiously, so I just lay until my heartbeat was back to normal again. As soon as I got up, my hands and feet were as cold as ice but inside, I felt a certain kind of warmth I’ve never felt before. I felt as if a heavy load of burden had been lifted off my shoulders and I felt as light as a feather.

 

        After that, I had a strong desire of hugging the aunties and when Aunty Pauline suggested that we gave the aunties a hug, I was so happy. I’m not sure if I hugged all the aunties, but when I hugged them I felt very happy.

 

        That night, most of us were not able to sleep after having received the Holy Spirit. Uncle Valentine came into the girls’ room and we had tons of questions for him. That MORNING we all slept very comfortably.

 

        During the Baptism of the Holy Spirit the next day, an uncle prayed over me while speaking in tongues and I felt someone/something pushing my head. Having listened to Uncle Valentine that night before, I remembered not to go against it and once again I fell on the floor. After I got up, I felt very warm, warmer than the last night. Later, we prayed to be given the gift of tongues, we were required to recite the words “Abba Alleluia”. Unfortunately, I wasn’t given the gift of tongues, I was disappointed at first, but I will continue to pray for that gift.

 

        The LSS experience was a very meaningful experience and I will always remember it. I’ve learnt that nobody is a loser, everyone is a winner and that is what makes this seminar so special.

 

        At the end of the LSS, I felt very sad and I consulted Uncle Valentine and Aunty Faith. They both told me that even though the seminar may have ended, the life in the spirit has just began. The LSS has changed me into a different person, a person who has been “reborn” again. I used to have lots of hatred in my heart, but after the LSS, I was able to forgive and forget. I went back and told my friends that I was sorry and forgave them. I also tried not to be greedy but to give and take what’s given to me.

 

        Until today, the song “Jesus, We Enthrone You still touches me. I learnt a lot through the LSS and I hope to attend more in the future. After the LSS, I’m able to open the door He has been knocking on all this while and am ready to feel God’s unconditional love. I have learnt that God has a special plan for each and everyone of us and whatever the spirit touches, it changes. Every week, I look forward to going for mass and I don’t see mass like before again. Lastly, I’m proud to call myself – A CATHOLIC!

 

 (Note: Transcribed from the original written by hand)

 

LSS 2008

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